January can be so tough. It actually snowed enough that we had to pull out boots today and brush off the car. It was cold outside and it was cold inside. Everyone went back to work and school today. Everyone I talked to, read about or heard from was tired!
I have planted myself on the couch and I seem unable to do anything productive. I am so tired it almost hurts. We had company for the last 5 days and we had more fun than we could have planned for. It was hard to see everybody go but it is also good to have the quiet and the calm now. Hopefully I feel rested sometime this year, I mean this week!
I have started the countdown now that the holiday is over. I have a colonoscopy coming up on January 22. Everything about this will be different. I have a new doctor who does this in a hospital (my old doctor was able to do these things in his office). I don't like hospitals much. My new doctor prefers a different type of prep. I used pico salax last time and it actually wasn't too bad. I had to use it twice, once in the morning and then at dinner time the day before the test. It did what it was supposed to do but I didn't have to drink gallons of yucky tasting stuff. This time I have to drink gallons of yucky stuff. I know that the colonoscopy won't really be all that bad. I will take the drugs and drift away and they will check me out and then I will know what kind of shape I am in and that will be good since I don't trust my own judgement anymore unless I am bleeding. I really just have to deal with change here because the test itself is a good thing.
I have continued to have sporadic pain, discomfort and sometimes I feel like "I need to go" and I can't. Other times I have to go! I am still fighting the fungal infections and despite the medicine that has been prescribed to me (nothing very strong as my g.p. feels they will destroy my liver) I have made little progress. I don't think I have lost any weight but I am hungry all the time and I am craving things like chicken and potatoes not chocolate and snacks. I am either so tired that my body needs extra fuel or I am starting to have absorption issues.