I am struggling a little bit today with the idea that I am quite dependent on my loved ones right now. I see the strain on their faces. I see the worry in their eyes. I am not able to get up and help, lend a hand or be the motivator.
I am working very hard at maintaining a positive frame of mind. It seems important to me that I keep my chin up, don't succumb to the blues too often and focus on hopeful thoughts. I do my best to not complain, in fact I write here about my pain but I don't usually talk about it. I keep it to myself. I can't live in that space all the time. I have to ignore it, I have to occupy my mind with other things.